the life of a doll

2007-01-19T14:01:00.000+08:00

i am worried about him!!!

a police officer talking to him.so..it must be a serious case..

how?

he didnt reply my msg nor answer my call.

feeling full now.had nasi padang and nasi lemak.ahh..heaven paradise.very very full now.

going out shopping next saturday.weee..going to shop for jumpers,dresses and also tops.am addicted to dress.haha.

this is a random entry.

p/s: i really worried about him.i seriously do.why he didnt msg or call me back? is he going to be okay.god,please save him.

:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

2007-01-10T23:13:00.000+08:00

1.am still attached to roy.
2.am still alive just too busy to blog.
3.am hating life.been not feeling well this few days.
4..aint having proper meals.can anyone feed me please?
5.am broke and i need money to buy new hp.my hp dying.
6.am hating this MR SINGH for interfering my relationship with roy.
7.am thankful that Ricardo treat me like princess,giving me chocolates,putting me to bed and etc etc etc.
8.am missing my daddy.i miss him so much!
9.am resting now.off today.tml work.haizz.
10.am tired of life.am struggling hard.haha.

bottom line,i hope all these would end where i n roy can have peace and be happy though we both busy.

but we had something in common.haha.both of us are busy

school + work = my life

well,this entry is full of crap.haha.

thank you,

1. ricardo : thanks for your love and care.am really appreciate it.
2.dev: for being buybody.haha.for listening to my problems and also trying to matchmake me. =)
3.marissa: for your listening ears
4.my adik (vivian) : going out with u can be crazy and fustrating.haha.but thanks alot girl for being there for me.
5.my abang (deep) : though we may not be that close anymore,having you and remi is fun.wish i can turn back time where we play slapping game.hehe.sorry abang.
6.roy : thanks for being my bf.i really need you.all the best for ur final exam.you can do it sayang.

2006-12-04T14:48:00.000+08:00

im sorry

1.i dont know what mistake have i done to you but i just wanna apologise to you.i hope we can be like what we used to be.exchanges kisses every night.

2.kesh : im sorry i cant give you a chance to be with me.im still attached to roy and i do love him.its ok he is treating me like this.but i still need him in my life.like i say i wont let him go for the second time.

3.deeps: im sorry i didnt update for a long time.hehe.

what happens next :

i will be missing for a while.
im not going to be okayy.
i need space for myself
im still emotionally unstable
i will always love roy
i do love him alots! and i need him by my side

How do I get through the night without you?
If I had to live without you,
What kind of life would that be?
Oh, I need you in my arms, need you to hold,
You're my world, my heart, my soul,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything good in my life,
And tell me now
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
Without you,
There'd be no sun in my sky,
There would be no love in my life,
There'd be no world left for me.
And I,
Baby I don't know what I would do,
I'd be lost if I lost you,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything real in my life,
And tell me now,
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
Please tell me baby,
How do I go on?
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything,
I need you with me,
Baby don't you know that you're everything,
Real in my life?

And tell me now,
How do I live without you,
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
How do I live without you?
How do I live without you baby?

missing roy.missing roy.missing roy.

- shes missing on 4 dec 2006-

2006-11-16T14:42:00.001+08:00

-emotionally unstable right now-

-a small mistake can lead to a break up-

-whats wrong with him? last time he was not like this-

-i miss him lots.i seriously do need him now-

-im sorry sayang i let you down.can you give me a chance?-

-this time i have to let go of you though it hurts to let you go-

-take care sayang-

-peeps im sorry.and thanks for caring so much.thanks cha bo for being there for me.thanks deep for lending your shoulder for me to cry on.thanks brother.thanks sister for giving me advices.i know you care bout me but you shouldn't berleter so much.like makcik kepo you noe-

-give me few more days for me to heal my wounds..ill be okay after sometimes.time will tell-

-thanks taufiq for being so caring towards me though theres no string attached between us.i miss the old times-

2006-11-14T15:04:00.000+08:00

- break up-

- break up-

-break up-

- break up-
13 nov 2006

2006-11-08T11:28:00.000+08:00

sorry for not been blogging.busy ah.busy woman lah.let me tell you what happened for the past few days.

friday-chaoed as a class.went to shan shan house.sleep,eat,drink and take pics.

saturday & sunday-spend time working at Tangos.haha.serve customer lo.

monday-didnt come shool.darling call me in the morning asking me to meet him.went over to his house and acompanied him and his brother.also played with his kittens.damn cute i tell you.

is he cute???

taufiq is back..he misses me.i do misses him at times.he ask for a patch up.how??

i wont let you go! i promised! if i were to let you go,it's my fault.

HE BITE ME!HE BITE ME!

2006-11-03T10:41:00.000+08:00

bayi, tell me when are we going out? book me one week in advance ya..

haha..im being evil..unfaithful..im going out with a guy without roy knowing.

k.let me ask u.

what would you do if u had a bf but both of u didnt spend time each other.
where was him when he need him?
he didnt find you.he didnt contact you.
and there was this guy out of nowhere who make you happy.
so tell me what would you do?

i also dont know what am i going to do?
i still love him like i used to but why he is doing this to me?

WHY!!! WHY!!! WHY!!

where were you when i need you?

-unfaithful and playful-

2006-10-31T12:26:00.000+08:00

saya rindu kekasih saya

i miss my boyfriend

wo xiang ni

=) i miss roy.i really do.

this is my family.hee.

me and my cha bo..haha.just privacy within.

one day i try to take pics with roy k..just wait..

i love you and i will never let you go! i promised!

2006-10-30T14:08:00.000+08:00

WHEN CAN I GET TO ....

1. meet him and spend the day with him?
2. buy his shoe with him?
3. see him and kiss him?
4. slap his tummy?

hey guys,sorry for not been blogging.been busy woth work and also been busy with my boyfriend.

last friday went to meet him after my cognitive class..hehe.. 'doctor appointment'.. =)
poor him..hungry.. so i bought him long john silver and went to his house.we did nothing ok! =)
later his mom went home.
and you know what ? his house got 2 kittens ..so cute!!!
met him again after work and went slacking and drinking.

*life has never been boring with you by my side.hope that you can be by my side everyday.

i miss roy! i miss roy! i miss roy!

i really miss you! i do! i mis your tummy!

2006-10-25T11:34:00.000+08:00

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Yang tak pernah wujud dalam alam cinta

Belum sempat ku jernihkan suasana

Engkau pula yang hilang

Entah ke mana

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Ku tinggalkan pesanKu kirimkan berita

Agar dapatku temui dirimu

Umpama sebutir permata yang sirna

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Inginku ubah semula kata

Dan tingkahlakuku yang salah

Agar kita dapat seiring

Di mercu asmara

Tak ingin lagi

Dan tak mahu lagi berpisah

Bukan dengan kerelaan hati

Penyesalan yang tiada kesudahan

Ku tersepit dalam jerat sendiri

2006-10-23T11:17:00.000+08:00

1.besok raya!!! dapat hang bao!!! makan serunding & my nenek's satay goreng!!!

2.besok my darling's birthday!!! happy __ th birthday sayang!!!

3.im broke!! i need cash!!! or sugar daddy?? haha...

4.i miss my darling!!!

5.i miss my cliques from W14P!!!

6.im tired! im hungry!im sleepy!

2006-10-19T09:20:00.000+08:00

what to get for his birthday??

i am going to enrol for motor liscense.

i love him and i try not to let him go.

i want him to change..

2006-10-16T20:52:00.000+08:00

i am tired and shagged!!!
i need to sleep!!! i need one day of rest where i will sleep from morning till night!!!

i am missing roy!!!
i am happy i get to meet him yesterday!!!

gabby is so unclean with his moustache..urgh..i beginning to hate guys with moustache!!!

to lazy eyes: i dont want to be your amah.i want to be your princess..haha

to chabo : think what is right for you.do what is right for you.i cant make d decision for you but i can only give advice to you.i can always lend you my ear. if you need someone to talk to,you can always find me..c*****..hehe

to deeps: thanks for telling me that.there's a no need to apologise.we will always be brothers and sisters. =)

2006-10-16T10:51:00.000+08:00

i didnt expect him to call me yesterday.i was doing opening at my workplace.indeed i was happy after 2 weeks we didnt meet each other.

i seriously missed him alot.i do.

we were suppossed to meet after work but he had other plans. =)

i missing you.i really do

food desire: lasagne & dendeng

he had grey & white hairs..must ask him to dye his hair..hehe

what are we now?

2006-10-14T03:04:00.000+08:00

i miss roy

feelings : tired,shag,hungry

2006-10-13T14:30:00.000+08:00

before i forget,

happy birthday remi

2006-10-13T14:15:00.000+08:00

after school heading to work.starting work at 6.

why must he keep asking the same question? why? in fact,the answer is i dont know.haha.

i just miss my workplace and making cocktails. =)

i still miss those guys...

and also i wish i could turn back time to last semester coz i miss W14P.i miss the fun we used to have.

food desire: chocolates & dendeng.

what are we now?

2006-10-12T09:56:00.000+08:00

i hate my facy!!!

im gonna hate that module!!

2006-10-10T11:16:00.000+08:00

i am missing those guys. =)

1. i missing roy nowadays. its been like 2 weeks plus we didnt meet each other.if you think we are partners,i dont think so.we dont act like one either.
hes been busy with his work and didnt had the initiative to msg or call me.must i be the one who everytime find him?

2.on the other side,i missing my gabby too. how i wish he could be the one who is there for me though hes busy. if only i could turn back time.even you want to know who is he. hes my ex. me and him lasted for less then a month?

3.lastly, i missing my sister's friend, faizal. haha..the last time i saw him was last last saturday (30 oct).hes was the guy of my dream but too bad hes attached.when can i get to meet him again?

now slacking..going to continue watching my wentworth miller into action.

*my stomach grumbling now,craving for lasagne..
*food desire : beef lasagne

what are we now?

2006-10-09T23:14:00.000+08:00

there you go cha bo. i made a blog just for you.haha.bluek =p

9 oct 2006

nothing happen much at school.since i got the prison break,ive been occupied with it till i didnt went for lunch.hee.
my chabo chaoed today leaving me alone but after school went to meet her them slack and watch prison break till i was too full to have my cheeseburger.later deep came to meet us while we are busy watching prison break.

i just love wentworth miller. (can i get a guy like him? haha) *talking to herself

ok lah..shall update later..

*missing him
*food desire : dendeng,chocolate overload